1st Day Being Jobless

I can't believe it...I can't believe when I began to shake my ex-colleagues' hands, them wishing me the best in the new coming year..that I am really leaving..(In fact, I have already left by the time I am typing this blog)

I do feel sad...There are things that I can't let go...The people there, especially Pei Pei who was my greatest mentor help while I was there, and the 3 musketeers whom have accompanied all my good and bad times (AP, Private Hee, and Steph). They even had a farewell dinner thrown for me @ Miramar Hotel yesterday. They are always so sweet to me...Nice friends....

My Papa Kang talked to me the first time after he came back from his holiday on Wednesday. I thought he would be unhappy with me and decided not to talk to me anymore. Instead, he passed me a gift, shaked my hands, and also wished me all the best...I wanted so much to hug him..Cuz he is juz like a father to me..Strict yet caring. He had been very very patient to me while I was still learning and stumbling...I felt I have let them down...They have treated me so well... Triccie also called from the States, and one of her msg touched me - Do not underestimate yourself.

I will remember all the encouraging words that all of you have given me...Thank you....

1st day being jobless and staying at home...I thought I was looking forward to it all these while...But the whole house became quiet without the radio being switched on...For not working, I felt I am not being "useful" enough...Contradiction right? People are always so complicated...

Well, despite all the grumblings, I am going to enrich my days being jobless. Do housework lah, meet friends lah, run errands lah. I am also going to start organizing my life better, and more planning for searching for the next job...

That was this one sweet thing that happened to me yesterday - At the farewell lunch @ Sze Chuan Do Hua restaurant, we had some fortune cookies provided after the lunch. I took the last piece and this is what I gotten:

"A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, with the same person"

Isn't it sweet and touching to one's heart? I find it so very applicable to my current life....I finish up my fortune cookie and kept my fortune slip, wishing that things work in this way.

Xmas Parties 2006

Its the time of the year..My Favorite Season/Festival that I always look forward to celebrating. Bec@use its full of love, warmth (or "cool" weather), gifts, food and joy! Well, this year we have our own Xmas tree in our own home, its even better!! Cosy environment to hold Xmas gatherings...

Received a lot of Winnie the Pooh gifts from friends and colleagues. Got a "B" brand wallet from Dear..Nice nice...Many many other nice gifts from friends too...

I can't bear to have Xmas leaving me...sobsob...I love Xmas too much...

The Wedding Dinner - Plaza Park Royal Hotel

The Final Part for the Night is the Wedding Dinner. 32 tables @ Plaza Park Royal Hotel. The night is beautiful, with many friends and relatives' attendance. A pity is that i din manage to catch up with most of them during the cocktail reception. Nevetheless, the night ended well...

We had the most wonderful memories the whole day...Filled with love and wishes...

~Mr & Mrs Yam~

Our Wedding Day - Tea Ceremony

Our Wedding Day - The Morning Fun!

3rd Nov 2006: It was the Big Day whereby Mr Yam & Mrs Yam had finally unite and finalize their wedding ceremony.

This album will show the morning part of the Bride-Fetching process. It was all fun & colourful with the help of the 5 Brothers & 5 Sisters. Had memorable and touching farewell moments with my parents...Teared when we hug each other closely....

We also LUV our Red Beetle Convertible Wedding Car and we took many photos with it! It is so cute, catchy and fun!! Red and Passionate!!

A Wonder-licious Dinner With Friends @ Shangri-La

It is such a wonderful Friday evening, enjoying a sumptous buffet dinner @ Sharngri-La Hotel, with 3 other TRUE BLUE REAL FRIENDS!!! We had so much fun sharing lots of jokes, laughter and old time stories...We just pour our hearts out and chat and eat non-stop!!! How wonderful life is, to be able to know such great friends @ work place yah? We have been sharing our joys and sadness with one another, making our friendship even closer than anyone else in the office.

Cherie, Aipoh & Stephanie: Thank you very much for your encouragement and support when I was really down @ work. Its your sincerity and friendship that keep me going... I feel I am so fortunate to be able to know such wonderful people in my life, from school days, to my first job in P-Serv, then to Morgan Stanley...I am really grateful for all these life encounters with you all....

I need a HR-cum-job counsellor to help me sort my thoughts!!

After making the decision to leave my current job, I have few other problems bugging me liao...

- Without this high-paying job, what should I do to ensure there is enough income for my housing loans, credit card loans and basic survival needs (eating)?
- where am I to go after going without a job?
- wat do I like to do?
- where is the right place to accomodate me?

Sometimes I feel so useless...Can I take stress? I ask myself? Prefer not to. I am like a brainless, aimless Graduate. Why do I study so much to come to this stage whereby I ditch a high-paying job that is hard to come by? To me, Money cannot buy happiness. They juz can buy you butter and bread.

I feel so confused of what I want in looking for a job. I look at so many factors! Interest, salary, benefits, working hours, distance & convenience from my house, etc....i feel so pampered and spoilt! Why can't I bite my lips and take the hardship?? Why can't I realise that there is no "Perfect" job out there? I feel that I need some serious counselling, probably from a job counsellor? Or maybe I should ask myself, why am I so afraid of facing stress? What happened to me? That suddenly I feel I only want a job that O-level/ ITE graduate can apply one. Why am I so useless and wan badly to be unchallenged? Sigh.........

Useless graduate, I always say myself..

Think I have wasted my parents' money by going to University.

Actually I think, I know I can do better than being an admin clerk. Yet I hate to be thrown into the deep big sea for the position I am doing now (Trading cum Client Servicing Asst). It just gives me the jitters when handling high net-worth clients. *scary*

What can I do?

Understanding more about Myself...

Cancer: June 21 - July 22

Your most likeable trait: LOYALTY

No one has ever said Cancerians are easy to understand. You may appear gentle,
kind, sympathetic, and a patient listener. Then someone asks for advice, and
you turn cranky, snappish, and appear to be completely indifferent to anyone's
problems but your own. You may wallow in self-pity and complain endlessly about
how mistreated you are by the world. Turn another page of the calendar and
suddenly you are back being helpful, solicitous, ready to do anything asked
of you.

What's your secret? Cancer, which is ruled by the Moon and has water as its
element, can be likened to the shifting tides of the oceans. Like the tides,
Cancer is the sign of powerful forces moving under the surface. That surface,
however, is quite difficult to penetrate, for Cancerians tend to build up an
elaborate array of defenses to hide their deep feelings and extremely sensitive.

Complex, fragile, unpredictable, temperamental, the typical Cancerian needs
a constant support and encouragement. You want desperately to be loved and
approved of but resent needing approval so badly. When you get what you need,
you give the best you have in return. Those who make you feel secure command
your undying loyalty. When you really care for someone there is nothing anyone
can say about that person that will make the least bit of difference. You
have a real blind spot when it comes to seeing a failing in those you love.

You tend to be a worrier and a silent brooder. People may pour out their hearts
to you, but the flow never goes in the other direction. You guard your secrets
well.

If offended, you do not strike back directly. Your method of retaliation is
to sulk, and it is often very effective. The technique is somewhat like being
whipped to death by a dozen strands of boiled spaghetti.

Cancer's symbol, the crab, has a hard outer shell that protects soft, vulnerable
flesh underneath. The same is true of Cancerians, who are often crusty, gruff
and grumpy, but possess a proverbial heart of gold. Beneath your tough exterior
you are a sentimental softie who will make any sacrifice for someone in need.
If someone asks for a favor, your first reaction will probably be no, but the
final answer is always yes. You should be judged not by what you say but by
what you do.

You are possessive. Anyone who becomes part of your life will never again
be entirely free. You try to stay in touch with friends, ex-lovers, former
spouses, business associates, persons you knew as children. If you let anyone
go out of your life, it is unwillingly and never completely. This reflects
your preoccupation with the past. An aura of nostalgia dwells about you; the
events and people of bygone years continue to inhabit your memory and usually
grow dearer to you as time goes by. You are devoted to family and home and
continue to believe in the old fashioned idea that marriage is forever—even
if the events in your own life contradict this.

It is hard to deceive you, for you can spot the tiniest nuances of behavior.
In fact, you are almost psychic in your intuitions. A photographic memory added
to intense powers of observation makes you extremely canny about divining other
people's inner motivations.

Cancerians are crab-like in their indirect approach to an intended target.
Observe a crab moving on a beach and you will notice its strange sidewise movement
toward a goal. People born under the sign of the Crab never take the direct
approach. You step to one side, then step to the other side and sometimes go
completely around. But you get where you intend to go.

If channeled in the right direction, your enormous sensitivity can be a greta
source of strength. Once you overcome your shyness and touchiness and master
your turbulent emotions, your intellect and imagination enable you to become
a success in almost anything you undertake. Contrary to the impression you
often give, you can be shrewd and canny in business. Cautious, conservative
in your approach, you possess an antenna that quickly gauges public taste and
opinion and senses new trends in the making. This instinct for business combined
with imagination is visible in such famous fashion designers as Bill Blass,
Oscar de la Renta and Pierre Cardin.

Cancer people hold on to money as tenaciously as they do to everything else
that belongs to them. To you money spells security, yet no matter how much
wealth you accumulate you never feel really secure. That is true of your emotional
security also. A Cancerian never gets enough love and approval, you always
need more. it is very easy to fall in love with this loyal, devoted, affectionate,
and protective Moon-child.

Early Xmas Dinner with my Folks

We invited my old folks to our house for an early Xmas dinner today, and they are so sweet to add more presents to my Xmas Tree! We just can't wait to open them!! We've also bought presents for them. Hope they like it.



Other than the presents part, both my n hubby personally cooked dinner for them. Steamed Garlic Prawns (with DOM), Rosti, Winter Melon Chicken Soup, Assorted Veggie...Hope they like it - Our Love+ Our Efforts

I love to spend more family time with them...I love them very much....

Our Xmas Tree!

This year is our first Xmas in our new love nest, and being a Xmas festival lover, I will definitely buy a Xmas tree for the house! I never know that setting up a Xmas Tree is so different! The whole tree is divided into different color codes for each level, then after putting all the branches on the tree stem, you have to branch out the leaves. The shimmery stuffs kept dropping on the floor as we put up the decorations. The lights are the main thing! Once u switch on the lights, oh gosh! how beautiful that is! Well, despite all the wonderful things abt this Xmas tree, we spend about $250 on the whole thing, and our BIG star is $20 liao! :P Forgive us for indulging on our very first Xmas tree...I simply love Xmas...Just that not enough presents to put under the tree (hinting u all out there hor) :P

Merry Xmas My Friends!