It has been a week since Mummy Yam returned to work..Initially thought I will have some time to get back into work momentum but didnt expect myself to be facing urgent matters to handle right away. I've no choice but to force myself to retrieve data from my "backup drive" in my brain and quickly get hands-on the tasks. Other than having to cope with stress of the work, I also have to handle all by myself as boss is still not back from her maternity leave. On top of that I have to better manage my time as I need to go pump milk, wash n sterilise the equipments 2 times a day. Every morning I also have to wake up earlier to pump milk before going to work. *Tired* Although there are more challenges for me to cope, I find it surprising that I'm coping ok! Maybe my stress level tolerance has increased with the coping of a baby at home for the past 3 months...Motherhood indeed has made me grow stronger n more matured.
I dun dare to think of my baby when I am busy at work thou I really miss her a lot. Only dare to look at her pictures and think of her when I am at my milk expression sessions. I was so lookin forward to knocking off work everyday & wish weekends can quickly come so that I can take care of her myself. So contrasting situation now comparing to my 1st month with her..haha...
At first I thought I can count on the maid who have been with us for almost 2 months, to take care of Kayla together with my in-laws. But sigh..already facing problems with her barely 1st wk I return to work. My FIL is missing 2 special $5 notes from his wallet which he keeps as collection. And from that day onwards, the maid started to show distraction in her work attitude and performed badly. Since tis is nt the 1st time of missing $, we decide the element of trust is no longer there, so have to send her back to the agency. We really have no choice but to send her back even thou we find her performance good. I wonder if we can still find someone as good as her the next round. Actually I still dislike the idea of hiring a maid again as I do not wish to subject ourselves to such nightmares again, I have no choice since my in laws need extra help taking care of Kayla. Unless if we manage to find a good bbsitter nearby then that's even better!
Well, take a step at a time and see wat God has planned for us bah...
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
The feelings before going back to work..
In another week's time, I will have to end my 3 months' of Mum-@-Home assignment and resume to Mum-@-Work status...
In my 1st month of stayin at home, I felt tired, bored and desperately wanted to go back to work...But after being with my baby for almost 24/7 everyday, and seeing her growing up everyday, I really can't bear to leave her for so many hours without seeing her. I've grown attached to her, but I do not know whether is the mutual feeling for her too? Or so long if there's milk milk, and there's people carrying and cuddling her, she will feel indifferent? I duno yet.. Shall see it next week bah.
I am also worried that she will grow more attached to the maid - the main caregiver, when I am always not around with her. And she will get more used to her style and will not give in to mine. Especially that Filipino maid of mine always hum that song supposedly in tagalore that I dun understand, and my baby always go silent and rocked to sleep. Should I feel glad that she's able to pacify my baby or should I feel jealous that she has her way with the baby? I am also worried when we are not around to supervise and remind her, whether she will forget this forget that, neglect this and neglect that? But since we are not the ones taking care of the baby ourselves, how to monitor every single little thing ourselves? No matter how hard, also must slowly let go our grip and let them handle. One thing assuring is that, my in laws will be around to supervise the maid and help to take care of the baby themselves, so at least my baby will be close to their grandparents which is a good thing!
After going back to work, I also have to continue to express my milk. Wonders if that will hinder my work. Also not sure how to bring so many barang barang to office - the medela electronic pump bag, the containers and brush to wash the pumps, my own handbag... aiyo..dun even know how to squeeze into the mrt every morning. So I hope I can survive expressing of milk for the next 3 months when baby reaches 6th month old.
Kayla, mummy will miss u alot when I return to work in another week's time.. Will u miss me too?
In my 1st month of stayin at home, I felt tired, bored and desperately wanted to go back to work...But after being with my baby for almost 24/7 everyday, and seeing her growing up everyday, I really can't bear to leave her for so many hours without seeing her. I've grown attached to her, but I do not know whether is the mutual feeling for her too? Or so long if there's milk milk, and there's people carrying and cuddling her, she will feel indifferent? I duno yet.. Shall see it next week bah.
I am also worried that she will grow more attached to the maid - the main caregiver, when I am always not around with her. And she will get more used to her style and will not give in to mine. Especially that Filipino maid of mine always hum that song supposedly in tagalore that I dun understand, and my baby always go silent and rocked to sleep. Should I feel glad that she's able to pacify my baby or should I feel jealous that she has her way with the baby? I am also worried when we are not around to supervise and remind her, whether she will forget this forget that, neglect this and neglect that? But since we are not the ones taking care of the baby ourselves, how to monitor every single little thing ourselves? No matter how hard, also must slowly let go our grip and let them handle. One thing assuring is that, my in laws will be around to supervise the maid and help to take care of the baby themselves, so at least my baby will be close to their grandparents which is a good thing!
After going back to work, I also have to continue to express my milk. Wonders if that will hinder my work. Also not sure how to bring so many barang barang to office - the medela electronic pump bag, the containers and brush to wash the pumps, my own handbag... aiyo..dun even know how to squeeze into the mrt every morning. So I hope I can survive expressing of milk for the next 3 months when baby reaches 6th month old.
Kayla, mummy will miss u alot when I return to work in another week's time.. Will u miss me too?
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Baby Kayla is 2 months old!
2 months old Kayla has a lot of development since last month - Her weight gain, her chubbiness, her responsiveness to us, more "talking" (she is quite talkative..hee.. even said her first "Hello" to us!), more smiling, more of different types of cries including 撒娇 kind, more into playing, and likes it when we praised her. Sometimes she will juz want us to hug and carry her, and will cry once you put her down and will stop immediately when you carry her in your arms. How funny. 
Sometimes I even think she understands partly what we are trying to tell her as she stops to listen to what we say (not when she's hungry and frustrated lah!) So I like to play and talk to her more now as I feel my love is reciprocated. Started to enjoy playing and talking to her as my daily activity, and started to get used to life being a mummy... A bit reluctant to return back to worklife in another 2 weeks' time...haiz. How ironic. Wanted so much to go back to work during 1st month, and now wish I have more time with her... Sure will miss her a lot when I return back to work.
Her sleeping patterns have also now started to be more stable, and for the past few nights can sleep through the night without waking up for feeds. So now we are less tired in the sense that we do not need to wake up in the middle of the night. But she still cries and fuss for quite some time before she concussed, and always want us to carry her till she sleeps. Wondering is that a common problem among babies?
Loving her lots and lots more...my baby...my precious darling...
Her 1st time on the infant car seat:
Her 1st swim:
Her lovely smile:
Her grumpiness:
Her sucking thumb momentz:
Her play time:
Sometimes I even think she understands partly what we are trying to tell her as she stops to listen to what we say (not when she's hungry and frustrated lah!) So I like to play and talk to her more now as I feel my love is reciprocated. Started to enjoy playing and talking to her as my daily activity, and started to get used to life being a mummy... A bit reluctant to return back to worklife in another 2 weeks' time...haiz. How ironic. Wanted so much to go back to work during 1st month, and now wish I have more time with her... Sure will miss her a lot when I return back to work.
Her sleeping patterns have also now started to be more stable, and for the past few nights can sleep through the night without waking up for feeds. So now we are less tired in the sense that we do not need to wake up in the middle of the night. But she still cries and fuss for quite some time before she concussed, and always want us to carry her till she sleeps. Wondering is that a common problem among babies?
Loving her lots and lots more...my baby...my precious darling...
Her 1st time on the infant car seat:
Her 1st swim:
Her lovely smile:
Her grumpiness:
Her sucking thumb momentz:
Her play time:
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