Our Xmas Tree!

This year is our first Xmas in our new love nest, and being a Xmas festival lover, I will definitely buy a Xmas tree for the house! I never know that setting up a Xmas Tree is so different! The whole tree is divided into different color codes for each level, then after putting all the branches on the tree stem, you have to branch out the leaves. The shimmery stuffs kept dropping on the floor as we put up the decorations. The lights are the main thing! Once u switch on the lights, oh gosh! how beautiful that is! Well, despite all the wonderful things abt this Xmas tree, we spend about $250 on the whole thing, and our BIG star is $20 liao! :P Forgive us for indulging on our very first Xmas tree...I simply love Xmas...Just that not enough presents to put under the tree (hinting u all out there hor) :P

Merry Xmas My Friends!

Lovely Moments with Dawn

Both of us really love our niece - Dawn. She is so clever, adorable and cheeky. We can sacrifice our precious time of sleep to spend more time with her while her parents are on holiday trip. She is really so important to us in our life. A pity that she seems reluctant to be close to JQ. I hope I can bear children who loves JQ and wants to be close to him : P

I also hope our children will be as adorable and clever as her.

Seriously pondering over my life...

After the honeymoon, I'd a difficult time trying to adjust myself back to the fast working pace that my work demands. Somehow during the honeymoon period, I have thrown away all aspects of my work...Furthermore, after I returned from honeymoon, my partner, F, has already left the company and left me alone...

I began to shut myself up, I began to fear, I began to cry, I began to breakdown (more than once). It is so difficult to continue working with the high demands and needs from my job...I began to ponder, why am I making my life so difficult? Why should I subject myself to such unhappiness while I am earning the big bucks? I spoke to the management ppl - They are all very nice to me, yet they are very straightforward when they pinpt my weaknesses - Lack of confidence & maturity.

Yes,I  agree. Despite I am 24 years old this year, I am married, I am still lack of maturity. Why leh? Cuz I am afraid to face the stress in work. I am such a weakling that I refuse to face it, I refuse to grow up. Or do I just plainly started to detest the work I am doing, because I am afraid of the high demands of the job? I duno...I am very very down...I broke down in office...I hate myself...for not being able to face it, to grow up, like what they said about me...

All these while, my only wish is to get married, set up a decent family, get a decent job whereby I am not required to be on stand-by every minute even during lunch, or after-work, or during off-days or during MC. I just wan to complete my work for the day and knock off at decent time. I love my home, I love my husband, I love my family and friends. Why can't I focuz more on them while I jus hold a decent 9-to-5 job?

I admit I am not a strong n tough person. I admit I am not confident enough...But why can't I be the way I am?I felt so touched when Dear said that I do not need to try to be the person what others want be to be. I am what I am. Why should I pretend to be tough and strong when I am not like that? He accepts me for what I am...I felt so touched...At the same time, I really wish I am more grown-up, more matured, more readily to face stress, so that if we have baby, we are able to cope with the demands of life...

I have therefore requested to transfer out of my current role which they have agreed. Hopefully in the next secretary's assistant role I will be in, I will be more able to cope with the stress and demands...

Please...I really keep my fingers cross...

If not, what should I do? Quit and find another job I like? Tryin to adjust to a new environment takes time, and the starting process is quite difficult..I tried it when I first joined this company. Especially when you jump to an entirely different sector...

Why is my work life so messy while I know perfectly what I want in my personal life?Work is my least priority. I work because I need constant income and to keep my mind working, and to keep myself updated with the society.

I pray that the hard times would be gone real soon, and get a job that I would feel comfortable in.

My Wedding Photos - Uploaded by Huijing

http://eilisong.multiply.com/photos/album/12

Our Honeymoon in Bangkok

A 5 days 4 nights trip in bangkok is our 1st honeymoon trip. Few years ago, Bangkok is also the place where we went for our 1st holiday trip (with friends). It was quite shiok mainly attributed to LOTSA SHOPPING - at MBK, Chatuchak. The relaxing couple spa package that we have took up at The Healthland is also very much enjoyable..A pity that I din really like the place that we hav booked (kinda eerie and small n practically nt a hotel), Air Asia flight and also my lost of voice and constant coughing...

We even went for a 1/2 day Chao Praya River tour-cum-city tour, booked with the local tour group. The tour guide, Nina is a very chatty and bubbly lady who have given us a lot of information. She even commented that Dear looks like one of the Thai actor who is bad role. haha...Not bad huh, go anywhere also attract ppl with his asian good looks huh. haha...

We even went to watch the Cabaret Show @ Asia Hotel. Some of them look very feminine and pretty, while some seems to have failed the operation. We were sitting very near the stage, and my lucky Dear, got pulled up by the Ah-guas to do a short dance performance with them!! Muahahah... He was so nervous yet he managed to pull it through with his stiff dancing.. :P

Now, we are looking forward to our Europe trip next year...

Relishing wonderful moments of our wedding...

Our Wedding: 3rd Nov 2006

Preparation Time: More than 1 year - Started from buying bridal magazines, attending wedding shows, sourcing for bridal shops, photographer, videographer, to booking of hotel for the wedding dinner, planning of itinery, getting close friends/colleagues to help as Brothers/ Sisters/ Emcees, printing of invitation cards & table arrangements.

Actual Day: Din really feel the excitement kicking in, even from the eve of the wedding day. Only until the makeup artist started to do the makeup, the photographer and videographer getting ready to shoot, and then upon hearing all my relatives and sisters pouring into my house to get themselves ready. At the very moment when I hear the loud honking of the cars, do I realise that their arrival is setting my heart to pounce out from my mouth! Haha! I was so excited that I grasped my mum's hand, exclaiming " 他们来了!"

I missed the playing games part cuz I m waiting inside the room, waiting for my "Prince Charming" to break through the obstacles and to come and fetch me. Later it becomes a whirlwind process of getting ourselves starting on the journey of going to one place to another, to start the tea ceremony in one house and another.

The greatest excitement: Comes from the Gorgeous looking Red Beetle Convertible!! It is simply wonderful to be sitting in that car, opening the top, and taking pictures in it! Woohoo! All thanks to my JC sisters for sponsoring my dream wedding car! They've contributed in making part of my dream to come true!

The most emotional part: Huggin my parents before leaving the house, and seeing my mum starting to tear...Oh my god!! They are the closest family kin I have in my life, and I love them so much!!! My life is starting another chapter, and I am always glad that I have my family in my life all these years... My relationship with my mother is also very very close...& I felt so touched when she started to tear... Mummy & Daddy, I love u 2 so much...I will still be your dearest daughter despite getting married off.

The most amazing thing for the Day: Dear becomes so spontaneous in playing the games that my sisters requested, and also said amazing touching words to me in front of other people! I can't believe that my shy Dear has become so daring for that day! Maybe he got drunk from the very start of the morning...Haha....After the dinner ended, with only us in the room, with him drunk after being "saboed" by the friends, he started to hug me and tell me things that are very very touching and emotional....I m Soooo Touched by what he is telling me...* Hope he is conscious and knows what he has told me lah! Haha...*

The small little regrets: I din get to decorate my reception area the way I hope it can be. I was not early enough to attend the cocktail reception and mingle with my relatives, friends and colleagues which I wanted to do badly! I din get much time and chance to chat with old-time friends, or to take more photos with them... Too busy twirling round and round by the sequence of events...

What I wanted to say now: A BIG "Thank U" to our wonderful Brothers & Sisters, Emcees and all the friends who have helped one way or another...The wedding is a success!! Of Cuz, we are also very touched by the majority's attendance for the night, and their well-wishes and compliments...U all make me feel so good about myself for that night!! Really!! I am also grateful for the tremendous good work of my videographer - Christopher Tay, cuz his Video express is praised and well-liked! He has captured wonderful moments and portrayed in a very touching and humorous way... Andy, my photographer has also done a good job by cheering ppl up before taking photos. I am confident of his works. Jessie, my MUA has also been a very nice person, who has dolled me up very beautifully for my ROM and the actual day. I have been fretting over the hairstyle for the daytime, but she has done it so well that I feel I should not have worried so much in the first place! Danny (from Sattine) has also been such a nice guy from the start we took up the package from them. He is ever so dearing and nice to us, that we are happy to be using his bridal services! Every so dedicated to his customers on his works and services. Lastly, Felicia who is my hotel Banquet Mgr has been such a nice lady who is every ready to make things work for us! Even the Duty Mgr for that day, Roy, has made us felt so reassured that things are going to work well.

Conclusion: I have wonderful memories, and happy moments throughout the whole preparation process and the wedding day itself. I have wonderful friendships which I will treasure them dearly. I am fortunate and blessed to have such wonderful family support, and lastly, I am glad that I have found you as my lifelong partner, Mr Yam

Eve of My Wedding - 梳头仪式

On the eve of my wedding, at 11pm (the auspiscious time), both sides of the groom and bride have to go through the 梳头仪式 (which I think is for the Cantonese tradition)

We have to prepare joss sticks, 龙凤烛, 汤圆,comb, mirror, ruler & I have to wear my new pyjamas for the night. My 3rd aunt is here to help me, by reciting the 一梳,二梳...verse. Can't remember the exact verse. Then we will eat the 汤圆. My silly dear followed his mum's instructions, sayin awake to watch the 龙凤烛 finish burning, and he stayed up till 3am!! My goodness!! No wonder he is so tired the whole day of our wedding! haha...For us, we just let it continue burning (for 长长久久meaning bah) throughout the night while we go and sleep..

It is another interesting wedding tradition that I have went through, and captured it photos and video (All thanks for my dear 小弟!)