Why is it that I always feel that people around me have found the jobs
of their heart? Something they like to work in? As counsellor lah,
events coordinator lah, teacher lah, marketing lah..I can feel the
satisfaction & happiness they felt. Why is it that I can't feel the
same for myself? I feel empty, except for the high pay, gd benefits,
and prestigious company name and reputation. Why is it I keep feeling
there is a mismatch somehow, despite the people there are willing to
teach me, willing to accept me thou I come from a non-financial
background and having this carelessness-prone attitude?
I ask myself: What do I actually like? What am I looking for in a job?
I just need a job to keep my income constant so that I can finance my
expenses such as housing, renovation, holidays, wedding plans, etc..Not
to forget my family's monthly allowances and study loans. Sigh...I am
willing to sacrifice everything for the $$$? Why am I so practical? Why
am I forgetting the little voice inside me who wants to do something I
like?
I remembered once I went for a job interview that I know I would
definitely like - Its to be a teacher for Brain Training School "The
Shachita Method". I would love to teach those young adorable kids who
have marvellous learning skills! I would love to see how parents learn
and bond with their kids...But because of the non-office working hours
that require me to work weekends full time, and also to get only $1.4k
for the first 1 year probation, and if you quit before that, you still
have to pay them back the training costs! How can I survive with that
pay?!? Its even lesser than a fresh Diploma holder! So I gave up the
chance thou the person in charge shortlisted me for 2nd interview
within the same day.
Why do I have to make sacrifices for living? for survivin? for material purposes?
I hope to do something I like in the future, without causing a strain in income allowance.
sigh..that's life. especially living in singapore, where everything is so expensive. i also haven't found a job that i truly have passion for. this current one is just to keep me going for the wedding preps cos of the nice people, environment and flexibility.
ReplyDeletewhen you think of going for a job you have passion for but yet not enough money to pay for the house and all, also sian right..i soooo understand!!
take heart that with the high pay, at least you and jq no need to be too stressed with the finances?
I guess grasses are always greener at the other side. Probably it's your own feelings that are making you feel that you are a mismatch. Or maybe it's just cultural shock, when moving from a local set-up to MNC. Or maybe, it's really like what you said you might not have the passion in the job. There are a lot of maybes...
ReplyDeleteYou may feel that people always found the jobs of their hearts, but is that really so? Sometimes some things are not expressed out only. One thing that you have to take note is, do not compare with others. Maybe people are envying you for having such a position with good pay, good benefits, good company, etc, just that you don't know.
It's definitely not easy to find a job that we have passion in, there is always trade-off. Well, don't dwell over jobs/work, they are just a mean for you to earn a living, to finance your expenses for the time being. When things are more settled down, you then can start to search for the passion of your life!!
Cheer up! You need to be more positive and optimistic! *cheers*
important is what u get from a job...
ReplyDeletei have learnt, job satisfaction and personal growth are important, and be happy in ur job
each of us have a hidden potential, and discover thru ur life learning process...dont give up and u will find a dream job of urs
cheers