Feelin like giving up sometimes...

1st trimester: The nauseousness and moodiness and tiredness sometimes make me feel like giving up. Being pregnant doesn't seem like an enjoyable process to me. Maybe I am not great enough, not strong enough, not determined enough... I felt really really down and listless..as if mopping around in office... Some kept askin if I am ok. I just cant hide my  sian-ness.

I can't imagine how will it like when I started to throw up and feel the impact of morning sickness. Now already started throwing up gastric bitter juice early in the morning, hurting my gastric even more... No appetite, but still muz eat. If I go on without food for sometime, I feel even worse! Small bites is just like my opium now. Will curb the nauseousness immediately. But never know how I will feel adversely after the intake thou. Just have to be careful on the type and amount of food ate.

I felt like crying when I emailed hubby yesterday that I am really not happy..I am not enjoying this process at all. It slows me down at work, nothing cheers me up now, and I feel sick most of the time.. He is very supportive - I am thankful. I hope bb dun mind this weak mummy. I know I will survive this, somehow. I just hope all the best for the bb.. To grow well and healthy. Some of my girl friends went through even tough pregnancy and morning sickness, yet they are still strong.. My case is not as serious, as I m contemplating of "giving up" the whole idea liao.. Actually not really want to give up la. Just at those moments, feel so mentally & emotionally weak to carry on...

I havn't feel the excitement setting in yet. So different from what I thought I would react when I know I am finally pregnant.. Maybe slowly I will be more excited bah?

Please give me the strength to love this bb more and able to endure the hardship along the way... I need the blessings of strength and determination.