I always thought I am not bad. I have some self-confidence of myself at work, with recognition from others. But then today I come to realise.. no I am not.. I am actually a nobody after the time and efforts input for the past 3 years...
I always thought I earn quite not bad. But actually I hardly make ends meet after so much debts and commitments. After calculation, I realise I earn actually not much and not enough. I have been deceiving myself all the while! Ha!
I have "overestimated" my capabilities and thought that I am good enough to be recognised by others. A pity that I am just a hollow shell admist my Uni qualifications and MNC working experience.
I should self-reflect on myself more and work harder in getting the achievements & recognition at work. I do not want to be just a mere admin junior staff with no concrete knowledge and experience in a specialised area. I pity myself sometimes, being such a swallow person.
It is not easy to start a family and be where you are right now. You should be proud of yourself to be handle these sort of pressures around you. Things will get better. We look and search for the right moment, right opportunity all the time. I am still a student after all compared to you guys who have the capability of earning and spending power. At the end of the day, you just have to know there are some things you can improve on while some things you should be proud of too!
ReplyDeleteDont worry babe! You are not as bad as you think! I must admit I am proud of you having to know what you want too in your marriage life with your the other half! *Smile, the rainbow will be out tomorrow!
yo! dun sound so depressed ok! we all go through the searching stage where we r unsure if something is meant for us, if we r capable.. its full of uncertainty & self-doubt, but take it as a challenge dat once conquered will bring us sweet success. dun b so harsh on urself, we r all not perfect. u r as good as u think u r. jiayou! and one day u smell success!!! call me anytime u need a listening ear...
ReplyDeleteIs it true? Everyone else also go thru this searching stage? I tot and I feel I am laggin behind my peers and trying hard to catch up...*Huff & puff*
ReplyDeleteOh sweetheart, don't get disheartened by one rejection. I always say one must kiss many frogs to get the prince, and this is true in job hunting too! I have seen many candidates whom I feel I can't help place them anywhere, but eventually, I do, or some other recruiter will. Sometimes it's a matter of timing.
ReplyDeleteremember the conversation we had? it's a phase we all go through. step back and take a look at what really makes you happy. like what a good friend whom i always go to for advice told me -- a job is just a means to sustain life. as long as it allows you to bring in some income for your family, it's a good job. take heart that you will eventually find something you want.
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hey sis. realising it now is not late to make any remedies. but you have proven yourself to mum dad and me that you are a capable daughter, and sister, to them and me respectively. i'm sure jianquan will be there to support you all the way and you will provide the same to him to build a strong family. :)
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That is sweet from your bro! Jia you babe!
ReplyDeleteThank you bro..You touched me with your encouraging words. I feel fortunate to have such good parents and brother like you. : )
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